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2011-09-06T11:19:00.001+08:00

2011-07-12T14:35:00.003+08:00

Sleeping Time

2011-07-04T13:35:00.002+08:00

How cheerful is your smile?? Have you try to smile in front of the mirror and see how big is your smile..

A smile is a facial expression formed by flexing the muscles near both ends of the mouth. Smiling is something that is understood by everyone despite culture, race, or religion; it is internationally known.

I'm copying the Top 10 Reason to smile from some web:

1. Smiling Makes Us Attractive

We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor. We want to know a smiling person and figure out what is so good. Frowns, scowls and grimaces all push people away -- but a smile draws them in (avoid these smile aging habits to keep your smile looking great).

2. Smiling Changes Our Mood

Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There's a good chance you mood will change for the better. Smiling can trick the body into helping you change your mood.

3. Smiling Is Contagious

When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, change the moods of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.

4. Smiling Relieves Stress

Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhelmed. When you are stressed, take time to put on a smile. The stress should be reduced and you'll be better able to take action.

5. Smiling Boosts Your Immune System

Smiling helps the immune system to work better. When you smile, immune function improves possibly because you are more relaxed. Prevent the flu and colds by smiling.

6. Smiling Lowers Your Blood Pressure

When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading. Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Do you notice a difference?

7. Smiling Releases Endorphins, Natural Pain Killers and Serotonin

Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers, and serotonin. Together these three make us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug.

8. Smiling Lifts the Face and Makes You Look Younger

The muscles we use to smile lift the face, making a person appear younger. Don't go for a face lift, just try smiling your way through the day -- you'll look younger and feel better.

9. Smiling Makes You Seem Successful

Smiling people appear more confident, are more likely to be promoted, and more likely to be approached. Put on a smile at meetings and appointments and people will react to you differently.

10. Smiling Helps You Stay Positive

Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It's hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that "Life is Good!" Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.

2011-06-15T19:12:00.006+08:00

Shall blog some topic that makes me have a very strong feeling to share..

I believe most of us had been through this stage.. So am I..

Whenever I had a break up with my ex.. My mum will always comfort me by saying if is fate, it will be yours. In Chinese, 是你的就是你的，勉强也不会有幸福的。。I will remember my mum words and is always reminded me..

In my life, I had met a lot of different kind of guys. Some had become my 'Ex',while some are just a passing-by. While some i had tears for them but well they really make me grown up a lot and became more mature in relationship. Some 'Ex' that I really feel so grateful that had really change me. During my secondary school days, I'm a 'Ah Lian' in most of my teacher eyes. Until i met this 'ex', i actually changed and i also should be grateful that my parents never send me to girl's home. Even some of my teacher will always said that my nature is not so bad and is just that i had mixed with the wrong company. When i was 15, i managed to turn back. But it was a tough time also.

Now I'm in the working society, I tends to see my shadow in some people. I'll recalled back my past and I will just give smile and think it really looked childish. I will tends to think why I was so rebel in the past. What will really happen if my parents giving up on me. Well, everybody had their own past so am I. Everything is so precious for me now. I treasure everything that i had now. Even my current boyfriend. In my life, i had lost alot of things. This include my two grandmother and my 'kor' that had left this world 9 years ago. I shall not elaborate more.

Thank you for passing by my life, Thank you for making me growing up, Thank you for me to tears for you, Thank you for loving me once, Thank you for believing me that i will changed. Lastly, this is for my parent. Daddy & mummy, Thank you for not giving me up. I love you.

2011-03-16T19:38:00.001+08:00

Shall do abit of update while I waiting for dearie at Gate 2..

Well, last saturday I was digging some empty photo album for my prawn hook.. I find some photo that my grand ma left behind after she passed away.. It been almost 1year plus that she left me.. I still thinking of her.. Even though how she had treated me.. I still treat her as my grand ma.. Hoping she is doing at the other world now with my uncle.. Shall upload some photo to show to everybody...

That was my grandma when she is young(on the left side standing).. I suspect that she is nonya.. But my mum claims that she is not.. Well who cares...

This one is when she went over to Canada with my aunt.. I heard from my aunt said my grandma not use to the weather there.. After few days of staying, my grandma requested to come back.. Well she is elderly mahz.. Haha..

My photo when I was young sitting below is my young sister.. She look so much different from now..

Guess I search for so long.. This the onli family photo we have.. My parent look much different especially my dad.. He look so much older now... But he still so strong..

This is one of favorite English teacher in primary school.. Though he always tease me in front of my class but he is a very responsible teacher..

I realize that I in my secondary sch time I got not much of photo.. So I can't post any of my secondary sch time pic.. But what I say is my face won't change.. I was thinking when I grow up older will my face look like my mum or my dad..
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2010-12-27T09:51:00.002+08:00

Belated Merry Christmas to all of you...

Five more days, we are going to say goodbye 2010 and welcoming year 2011.. It's a rabbit year and is my year too...

Let finalize what have i done for 2010...

Resign from MIPL (my ex company) and got myself a better job which is NUH.
Re-module my Accounting AC 102
Manage to pass my Accounting Exam with flying colours. Result is grade B.
Celebrating my birthday @ genting in 2010.
My driving license is 1 year old. No accident involved (*hopefully it wont in the future too), Just a little banging with my hubby car...

i think that should be all for 2010. Forgive me if i forgot some..Guess i should name out some wish list for my 2011.

Wish list for 2011

Faster get my bike 2B license asap.. Hubby is nagging all the way...
Wish i got something special for my birthday present cum valentine day.. (hubby.. I hinting you!!!)
Going to bintan for my birthday, august going Taiwan with hubby and two of our good Buddy (Julianne and husband Edmund..) *wish hopefully we can successfully go without anything happens..
Hopefully the old maid don't always disturb or irritate me..

Should all for now ba.. Still haven't think yet.. I will slowly add on if i could..

Shall update abit regarding what have i done during the long weekend.

Well, on the friday which is the christmas eve, we went out to meet out with my ex collegue from UWS chris, su zhen, alfred, jenny, su zhen mummy, etc.. We went to yishun dam to meet them out.. Cause they are BBQing at there.. Still out of charcoal and have to get them the poker card..We went to three areas just to get the charcoal. We manage to get it at the 3 destination. After we brought the charcoal, we head to yishun dam straight away...

Well, i just onli upload the picture.. As i kinda lazy of doing typing.. haha.. cos i still got some more to update.. Well, i shall disclose what had i brought for him for his birthday present cum christmas on the next update.. Stay tune..

I finally gradaute lo...

2010-12-15T08:27:00.000+08:00

Yes.. Today title is about gradution and from the title i'm telling everybody I graduate from raffles college.. In 2007, I persude my advance diploma in tourism and hospitalty management.. Don't ask me why I took this course but I end up in admin.. There is a story behind and I dun wish to say.. As is kinda sad thing.. So i don't wish to bring it up anymore..TYVM..
Well, in this year I retake my account (AC102- my module code).. To my surprise that one of my classmate Rachael also retake the module same as me and one more surprise is that only two of us in the class.. So it was easy for James (my lecture) to teach us.. As I expected, is really easy for him to teach and even faster than the last module.. Fortunely, I still manage to catch up and even work even harder than that.. I even apply AL to do my assignment, revision n self study.. Thanks god I finally make it and I got B grade for it... My effort finally pay off.. Everybody also very happy for me..
In 13 december 2010, I was invited to my gradraute Ceremony.. Everyday I counting down the days.. Finally, it arrived.. I was so excited.. I woke up very early.. Doing the same usual, calling hubby to wake up.. Everyday is challenge to wake him up.. Well, I getting use to it, anyway.. After that, he drove me to bus stop n I took a bus back home as my mummy took AL jus for my graduation day...(Thanks mummy..) Rotting at home, around 2pm, I head to saloon to find my stylist as usual I will ask her to help me style a nice hair for my graduation..

I like the way she help me style my hair.. Everybody comment it nice and it look different.. Well I was in the cab on my way to meet out my sister.. It's was raining on that day.. But it's alright nothing gonna spolit my mood that day.. I still haf few picture with my sister.. I'm waiting for her to email to me.. So that I can update in here...

Picture 1

Picture 2
I upload two picture.. Though both of them look almost the same.. But I still prefer the first one.. Anyway what do you think..
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2010-11-18T11:49:00.012+08:00

Happy Hari Raya Haji to all my Malay Friends. Well The greeting seems to be abit late.. But never mind.. At least i made the effort..

Well, as everybody know that 17 November is a public holiday.. Hubby was off yesterday.. So we plan to go Jurong Point to have a walk while waiting for our friend to come our house helping us to fix the starhub..When we pass the Haagen Dazs, I suggest to hubby that I wanna eat the ice cream fondue.. So we went ahead to the Haagen Dazs. While we were browsing through the menu..

We was quite surprise that the fondue cost $40 exclusive GST. Yah.. I noe i very cheapo.. But when you saw the picture, you find it doesn't worth the price.. I can do it myself if i know how to do.. haha.. In the end, we choose the paradise for our dessert..

This is the ice cream paradise

I quite like this ice cream... Cause got 3 favour is my favourite.. got manago sobert, rasberry sobert & tiramisu.. As for other 3 favour, actually didn't bother me to find out what's the favour it is.. Cause i don't wanna to know.. Oh yeah...

There goes my hubby pouring the melt.. OMG!!

Look at this angle, It look so Delicious..

The Ice cream is mixing together with the chocolate.. I like...

Yeah, We have finish everything..

Then, after our delightful dessert.. We order two coffee..Well, maybe haagen dazs may be good in their ice cream.. But their coffee taste only milk..

Hubby's Ice Latte..taste onli milk (that what he told me)

This mine.. Ice Moca..(mine taste alright although i dun taste any chocolate but at least i still tast Caffeine inside my moca..heehee)

After we finish everything, we ask for the bill.. As we waited for too long, hubby starting to give sleeping face.. So i took the opportunity to take this photo.. Hubby.. You are now very popular in my blog.. haha...

My Virgin Sewing Machine

2010-11-13T20:43:00.010+08:00

Today my virgin sewing of hubby army pants.. haha.. This is my first time using the machine.. Please take note this is not a electric machine.. It a old manual machine.. Last time my mum will never letting me touch her sewing machine.. As this is a old machine, so she scare i might spoilt it plus last time i also not interested to learn.. Until now when i need it, i have to ask my sister to teach me.. Haha.. But never mind.. Now i master it and my mentor is my sister.. haha.. Must really thanks her for being patient teaching me even though she is having fever.. Thank you qiqi.. Love you.. haha..

Ok ok.. Here i post some of the photo of the process i have done...

The starting process: Measure first...

Second: CUT!!!!

Third: IRON!! Just to keep still so that when sewing time..

Fourth: Sew....It really take skill.. It took me for the long time to complete...

The Fifth... Complete...

The Internal....

There it goes.. I done all of them.. All by myself...

Recently, hubby company me go shoes.. Actually i only wanna buy for my working purpose.. But i see see look look choose choose.. In the end, i brought two shoes.. One is flat another one is heels.. The heels is 3.5 inch.. I know that very high plus i very tall too.. Haha.. When i wear the heel, i stand the same high with hubby..

The side view

The Front View...

The close up..

Our Ring.. Since 2009..

Well, We brought our ring last year.. He is working primer mover as most our friend know.. This job also consider a no day no night job.. Why do i say so? As he always have to wake up early and always come back late.. As time goes by.. The ring colour slowing start to fade.. Haiz lousy ring.. Hubby, WHEN can we buy new ring.. *Hint Hint*.. " Miss Kris, you very cheeky..."

Haha, I also think so..

That's all for today.. I will blog very soon.. Take care everybody.. *Hubby, stop spot check my blog.. Faster go work or go sleep now!!!" haha...

2010-11-09T22:33:00.001+08:00

Well well well...guess I too long had not update my daily life in my diary..and my baby has been complaint I too long have no update... So while he is watching the news..I get my chance to update abit...

Time pass quite fast...2010 going to end soon.. Currently I werking at NUH..don't be surprise when u see me there..haha.. I neither the nurse there nor the doctor..haha.. But I must have a good relationship with the nurse...cos I helping them to do all the paper work...
Well... Everyday u sure will have to handle some challenge given by the senior.. As usual.. I still the youngest in the office..everybody like me alots expect for one.. I name her as old maid.. " that's veri bad..miss Kris.." haha.. But she is marry..I just can't find any names for her..anyway I dun give a damn... She has super bad attitdue.. I reali dun like her neither my RO aka report officer.. Haha.. But sometime I am sandwhich between my ro n OM.. But what my collegues say as long I do my jobs, I will be safe..
Last few day, our blackie got bang by one toopid civic...the uncle still have the cheek to say we are in the wrong..but too bad even he get a withness to say something.. U ARE STILL IN WRONG!! Especially his wife veri stubborn and she still say I'm very firece.. But sad to say... My baby help me..haha.. But this uncle is kind enuf and he willing to pay for the repairing... So after that we went to the car workshop to respray our blackie.. It take whole day to do.. We got no car and dunno where to go plus I haven take my breakfast cum lunch also... So we head to junction 8 for our meal... Baby brought DKNY Delicious apple perfume for me..whee..So happy... After that we head to basement for our meal.. Got pizza hut, ding tai feng, hong kong cafe and etc... In the end, we choose hong kong cafe..

Our yuan yang ice...

Baby's seafood hor fun..

The total we had for our meal..

Baby enjoying his dessert..

Lastly our first bus trip together to J8..

After that we head back home and wait for our blackie to be done...

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2010-07-08T19:51:00.001+08:00

Thanks god for letting me to haf you once again..Thanks god for heard my pray..
We having been together for almost two years..time reali flies..I didn't Noe that this journey we had walk together for so far..Although we had argument, quarrel, happiness and sharing our thinking..You always there to support me giving me advise...
I reali love being together with you..love you always pad me to sleep..love you always saying I love you before going bed..love you always sending me to werk..
I reali feel bless to have you once again in my arm..
Baobei...I reali love you.. *muack*

2010-06-23T18:26:00.001+08:00

Got this from one of my gf post..find it quite meaning so I decide to post here.. Enjoy pals..

一个女孩上自习,太凉了,
她发短信让男朋友去送衣服给她,男孩打游戏拒绝了.
这件事让她郁闷了两天然后气消了,
虽然是件小事,不会影响两人以后, 但是她说,
她会记住, 以后自习一定会带衣服,
如果哪天忘记了, 即使冷死,也不再会叫他送.

我很能明白这种感觉.
很久以前,一个女孩某天夜里,
心情特别低回,特别想念某个人的安慰,
然后半夜时分,打电话给他,说很想听他说话,
电话那头的他从睡梦中醒来,不耐烦的敷衍她.
从此以后,她再没有伤心无助时给他打过电话.

我发现女孩身上有一种猫性.
小猫在撒娇或者做错事的时候,需要别人的安慰和教导,
如果这时主人打击了它,它会狠狠记住,不会再犯.
女孩,有着猫一样的自尊.特别是陷入爱情里的女孩...
在别人看来无关紧要,其实需要呵护,
因为爱,已经让她的心变得柔软.
她的这一点自尊,其实是要你对她的在乎.

我看过一句特别经典的话,
有时候女孩需要一个男孩,就像逃机者需要降落伞,
如果此时此刻他不在,那么以后他也不必在了.
真的,就是这样！

如果哪天猫咪用坚定的眼神看着你说我可以的时候，
那么猫咪已经做好了离开的准备了!
女孩是要独立，
但是独立到不再会对你不讲道理的撒娇任性，
不再会无厘头的缠着你，
你觉得你对于她同路人还有多大区别呢?

女孩的猫性不是每个男孩都有幸看到的，
因为喜欢你，在意你才对你发出特有的咕噜噜声，
其他人只能听到猫喵喵叫，
而这一声咕噜噜只是为你而生，
有几个人会明白呢？？

我们爱折腾
只是爱折腾他而已。
如果有一天
我们慢慢发现自己可以一个人玩都不觉得闷
很久不捏他也不会手痒
只是静静的待在他旁边
不再想着法儿去玩它
谁能知道那时的我们该有多难过呢

男孩总会说女孩无理取闹
说女孩没事找事
说女孩不讲道理
说女孩不可理喻

为什么不去想想
她在对待别人的时候
为什么不是这样的态度

没错
如果有一天
她不再对你撒娇
她不再对你任性
她不再缠着你跟你要这个要那个
她不再因为你的任何事情微笑或者皱眉

那么
你就永远的失去她了！

2010-01-19T14:15:00.001+08:00

In love, we win very rarely, but when
love is true, even if you lose, you
still win just for having the tingle of
loving someone more than you love
yourself. There comes a time when we
stop loving someone, not because that
person has stopped loving us but because
we have found out that, they’d be
happier if we let go…

Why do we close our eyes when we sleep?
When we cry? When we imagine? When we
kiss? This is because THE MOST BEAUTIFUL
THINGS IN THE WORLD ARE UNSEEN…

There are things that we never want to
let go of, people we never want to leave
behind, but keep in mind that letting go
isn’t the end of the world.
It’s the beginning of a new life.
Happiness lies for those who cry those
who hurt, those who have searched and
those who have tried. For only they can
appreciate the importance of the people
who have touched our
lives…

A great love? It’s when you shed tears
and still you care for them, it’s when
they ignore you and still you long for
them. It’s when they begin to love
another and yet you smile and say, "I’m
happy for you." If love fails, set
yourself free, let your heart spread its
wings and fly again. Remember you may
find love and lose it, but when love
dies, you never have to die with it…

The strongest people are not those who
always win but those who stand back up
when they fall. Somehow, along the
course of life, you learn about yourself
and realize that there should never be
regrets, only a lifelong appreciation of
the choices you’ve made. Loving is not
how you forget but how you forgive, not
how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel, and
not how you let go but how you hold on…

It’s more dangerous to weep inwardly
rather than outwardly. Outward tears can
be wiped away while secret tears scar
forever…

It’s best to wait for the one you want
than settle for one that’s available.
It’s best to wait for the right one
because life is too short to waste on
just someone…

2009-12-05T00:53:00.000+08:00

我只想做他身边唯一爱他的女人。。只在他身边默默的支持他的女人。。不要求太多。。只希望他能真心的爱的我。。。因为我是真的爱上了我的宝贝卓家福。。MUACKKKKKK。。。

2009-10-18T10:01:00.000+08:00

Is been so long after my last update..recently got too much thing happened in my family..my beloved grandma passed away..so sad n heart break..i always tot our family wont have finance fighting but it turn in a different way..now our family tree have turn to a separate way..onli left our two gu gu is our family..we break ties wif our father elder bro..but nvm..at least we have seen through n is over..no more this kind of fighting anymore..yst our cousin-in law's mother also passed away..even though is our so-called distant relative...but we cant go over..wanna msg my cousin to help send the consolation to her husband de..but i dunno what to write also..in the end i never wrote to her...k la...no more sadness of report liao...let's say something more happy de ba..hmmm...on the 1oct i passed my car licence...hehe...reali unbeliveable...even though is my second try but at least i haf tried...lucky got dear dear, my family and godness of mercy to support me..hehe..i veri kiasu on that day...i pray two time before my test practical...one is at hm after that i went to bbdc beside there is a temple..and i pray again b4 i go for my lesson..haha...on that day actually i was quite stress as my reverse parking wasnt that good than i expected..n i not familiar in the circuit somemore...n b4 me there is one person jus went for tp too..but failed..so my teacher was expected me to passed..without any disappointment, i make it and in passing mark not more than 20, i manage to get 10...hehe..n test said i veri confident in my driving..actually i was acting onli la..haha...i was quite nervous n stress..but bb said b4 cannot nervous wen u see tester..jus treat it as ur normal friend n i did it..now waiting for my license to be mail..have to wait around 2-4week..haiz still got so long..yst..drove my bb car to jurong point..wao..stress men!! This my first time drove @ expressway..super scary siaz..but still manage to drove safety..hehe..k la..second happy thing is that bb brought us a couple engraving wif our name n the date that we brought our ring..hehe..i will also remember n much more easy to remember..20092009 this is the day that we brought our couple ring at couple lab..hehe..alot of ppl say nice..so happy..my bb so sweet..hehe..november he is going for reserivst for 2WEEKs..OMG..so sianz..cannot see him for 2weeks n hug to slp..so sad..
Think should stop here le ba...dunno what to type also..next time wen i free den write about personal life again..

2009-07-10T11:03:00.001+08:00

看到过花瓶的样子吗？口很小，想伸进去很难，但如果你能进入瓶子里，你真的会看到一个广阔无比的空间。瓶子们就是这样的。

当他们觉得你是真的真的爱他们，和你在一起真的真的安全时，他们会开始回馈的。他们回馈的时候你会惊奇到不敢相信，因为他们一旦爱一个人真的是无微不至。不过他们也很容易厌倦的呀，瓶子们有一颗猫一样的心，你要永远对他们有吸引力才好。不然他们很难不偷猩的。男瓶尤其如此，他们有的时候真的是做了对不起你的事也丝毫没有愧疚。有时候他们会无理的想只要我心里真正爱的是你不会离开你就是真的爱你。他们的自由有时就是放纵的借口。

但瓶子们也有弱点的，当他做伤害你的事的时候，你要懂得让他换位思考，甚至直接用他对你的方式隔天对他试试。他就会渐渐明白对你的伤害是怎样的了。他爱你他就会逐渐的懂得在乎你的感受。

瓶子们轻易不说我爱你这三个字的，这三个字在他眼里太神圣，更重要的原因是他们觉得说了这三个字在爱情中仿佛主动权就失去了。他们太怕失去爱情中的主动权。但你却不能不对他们说，很没有道理，但没办法的。如果一个瓶子对你说了太多的我爱你，反而证明他内心深处对你没感觉只是玩玩而已了。

爱上瓶子是一件很苦的事，所以爱瓶子的人不要问为什么该怎样，你只要在内心深处问问你自己能不能承受就好了。如果你觉得值得就去接着付出，如果你觉得不值得就勇敢的放弃。除非他转身，不然再不要给瓶子们机会。当然如果一个瓶子转身过太多次又伤害过你太多次也就放手的好。不然他会从心里有些瞧不起你的。

瓶子们若爱上对方，真的是占有欲好强的。他们轻易不表现出来，因为他怕他们过强的占有欲会泄露了他爱你不能没有你的底牌。不过如果他们开始限制你吃你的醋，那他一定是好爱好爱你的。　　　　瓶子们有时候真的很难真正相信他们的爱人。而且越是爱有时候越难相信。因为他们的谎言有时说的好多所以总觉得别人也是在欺骗。

　千万不要轻易伤害了瓶子们的心，瓶子们对爱情很没有承受力的。你可能想象不到，当你刚刚气痛了你的瓶子或是和你的瓶子谈分手跳脚离开的同时，他们可能就会打电话给他们的红颜知己或是有暖味关系的朋友们，说一些过分的话做一些过分的事甚至当夜就会和他们发生什么……，瓶子们不是想背叛你，瓶子们只是好悲伤，找不到更合适的方式来发泄。好多被伤害过的瓶子都会生活得很烂很灰色，虽然过后可能会后悔厌恶自己到想死但他们就是习惯用这种颓迷的生活来掩饰自己深深的失落深深的痛。　　　

当然，当你后悔之后回来找他的时候，他还会接受你，他不会告诉你曾经发生过什么而且会极力的去掩饰，如果他爱你。但通常好多事实已经无法改变了。　　　　

当你背叛了瓶子，瓶子们会痛到心裂成碎片，没有泪，即便有，也是流在了心里流到了别人永远看不到的背后。因为我说过的，虽然瓶子们忠诚度不敢苛同，但他们真的是在内心深处最最在乎的就是那两个字：忠诚。在你背叛了瓶子后有两种结果。一是瓶子们无声的接受，重新选择和你在一起，因为他们爱你，无法承受分手。但他们的信念死了，他们可能会不再相信你的话，他们会背着你有了另一个人，甚至另N个人，哪怕他们并不爱那些人，也可能会做一些不该做的事来谋求一些心理的平衡，然后再背叛你的同时找回那可怜的平衡同时痛不欲声。　　

另一种是，他们对爱的忠贞要求的太过唯美无法接受，瓶子们会用你认为最冷血的方式选择分手，可能是微笑的告诉你他们也从来未曾爱过你，你尽可以去和千百个人去睡；可能是毫不在乎的转身离去；可能是在分手后在你面前和无数个异性打情骂俏；可能是在最快的时间里接受另一个人重新开始并甜蜜的出现在每个人的面前……无论以上哪种，他们的心其实是在滴血的。前提是他们真的爱你。他们会在这些表象的背后独自买醉，在最短的时间里抽最多的烟，出卖自己的身体甚至灵魂。用最残忍的方式暗自伤害自己麻醉自己，也会去折磨这时爱他的下一个男孩和女孩。一个失去了信念的瓶子们的痛是无法想象的，他们只能真正用自己的方式慢慢的寻求某种出路。　

瓶子们喜欢一见钟情，但是他们更喜欢日久生情；瓶子们接受一夜性，但他们更渴望一生情；他们的弹性好大，善良几乎可以善良到佛的境界，卑劣也可以卑劣到遭万人唾弃。　瓶子们多数都很茫然。他们是真的不了解自己，不知道自己真正想什么要什么，虽然他们也许可以轻易看出别人的人性动机需求。瓶子们喜欢暗自观察身边的人，窥探到别人的内心深处，凭自己的直觉和洞察力去了解别人，他们的直觉往往也真的好强好强。　

瓶子们最惨的就是碰到一个真的比自己还好自由还喜欢漂泊还花心的人，因为他们的好自由有的时候真的就是一种伪装，一种保护，一种检验你是否爱他的手段。一个真正只想爱你一个人只想忠贞于你一个人的瓶子就不会再要求什么自由了，他们想要的就是占有和共处。　　

做瓶子们父母也往往好辛苦，瓶子们是孝顺的，我确定。但那种孝不是顺从。他们有太多自己的想法自己的原则，所以当这些和父母的想法发生冲突的时候他们会据理力争。哪怕没有冲突，仅仅是父母的唠叨他们也只是暗自记在心里嘴上说着罗嗦罗嗦。他们太过叛逆太过自我，但真的，他们深爱自己的父母，深深的知道没有任何一种感情可以超越这种血肉之情，所以他们无法容忍你批评他们的父母或和他们的父母争执，不管他们是如何争执，这种资格只有瓶子们自己有。

2009-06-19T15:10:00.002+08:00

Haha...Jus did a survey from a website..about the Jealousy Test..haha..and this is the result..hmm..true enuf that i veri easy to get jealous n veri easy to be supersitious..haha..

Jealousy Level: 60%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it showYou often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.

another quiz
How deep is your love?

Depth: 60%

You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.
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Well, since last week wednesday have been staying dear dear hse..almost one whole week liao..but yst seems that dear dear veri tiring..think maybe should move back home liao ba..ltr he think i veri fan..Yst, he have been bad mood for almost half a day. went back home n take my clothes, in the car he nv spoke to me for the WHOLE JOURNEY..ARGH!! i keep thinking the bad thing but also nv think of maybe he is too tired liao.. But i also veri stubborn. Nv tok to him the whole journey. scare if i tok too much we might haf another arguement again. so i jus keep my mouth shut..

2009-06-15T12:46:00.003+08:00

突然感觉到别人所谓的嫉妒和威胁..好辛苦,好痛苦...

多了解你爱的男人.....加油吧女人们!!!

2009-05-21T14:32:00.006+08:00

白羊座男——如何去爱

白羊座的男子绝对热情，但是却有着童话般的感情模式；把自己想像成王子或骑士，对方就会被想像成公主或城主的女儿。换个角度来看，既然你有着这样让他他心动的想像身份，那你就得为这个身份而保持形象。他是个孩子，所有的孩子都不会喜欢幻想破灭。他会以很快的速度进入爱情，当然也会很快的从爱情中跳脱出来；有时，你真的不必害怕他的热情，反而应该害怕冷若冰霜的反应－那表示着：一切对他而言均无意义或亳无趣味了！虽然刚才提到个“孩子”这个用以形容他的字眼，但有些无法用在孩子们身上的字眼，却得用来形容他，像是他善妒、占有欲强、不随意信任伴侣。不过他倒是挺值得信任的，他对感情真诚、专一，并且热情的付出，面对感情。很多人都不相信有破镜重圆这套，但他相信，并且期待。他的脾气不是很好，很容易就暴怒。在感情中，他必须要站在主导的地位，否则他会生气，气起来有时会像孩子般，蛮横不讲理。他不会不负责任，只是对很多事情却三分钟热度，所以保持他对这个感情的乐趣及热情就重要的很；保持你们的淑女风范，像是照顾孩子似的照顾他，听他说话，让他掌权，别破坏他的男子气概。

金牛座男——如何去爱

金牛座的男子很花时间。他花所有思考的时间，只为了做出正确无误的决定，就像他也会花时间来思考及观察你，以确定你会不会是那个与他共渡一生，享受他准备好的一切事物的那个女孩。他很浪漫，这不是开玩笑；只是要看得出他的浪漫，得花上一段训练，而他是教练，慢工出细活的教练。标准的金牛座对感受相当敏感，他若是愿意付出感情，而你就是那可以与他共渡未来的人，那你一定可以感觉出他的浪漫，他了解浪漫的感受有多迷人，就像他一样。我会希望你有着淑女风范，也希望你有点儿智慧，像是懂得礼节，知道什么时候该说话，什么时候该闭上嘴巴；并且在男士面前低下头，不做奇怪的表情，那种怪到让别的男士以为你对他们有好感的表情。当然，男士们，如果有个女子这样对你们有好感，我会希望你们先查查她的护花使者的生日最好别在五月；他的脾气虽然相当和善，但有时却不怎么友善，像是践踏过你的身体……。他是个好好先生，只是有些顽固，不过他的爱总令人感到平实、简单，他除了会送花外，还会写诗，另外还有个迷人的本事，赚钱。我看到你的眼睛在发亮了，不过我得告诉你：别推他，没有任何一只牛喜欢被催促。

双子座男——如何去爱

双子座的男子需要两个爱情，也可以说成两种爱情，反正他就是要将一切成双成对就是了。虽然如此，并不代表他也要求要有两个女子来供应他两个爱情，如果你可以一次供给他两种爱情，那他恐怕早早就已看中你的雀屏了。双子座的男子相当神奇，他可以用一百种方法说“我爱你”，而且随时可以再发明另一百种，所以你得要有足够的心智来跟上他的脚步；但是有时你也别跟的太紧，聪明的你实在应该知道何时又该离他远一些。双子座的感情需要时间与空间来纠缠。”改变”是他其中的一个代名词，双子座的人几乎都有好几个名字，他变得很快，不管是感情、态度、心情、想法还是服饰，别忘了，他是两个人。不是你眼花了，而是你把他当两个人来看，一切才会比较有趣，尤其是当他对你冷言冷语时。不要太接近他的内心世界，他心中有块地方是不准任何人接近的，你最好要入境随俗，别犯了他的忌讳。不管婚前或婚后，他都不会安定下来，包括他的言谈方式。你必须一直都保有想像力，就算与他一块儿都七老八十了，也必须如此，否则你会活得很无趣。

巨蟹座男——如何去爱　　

巨蟹座的男子是恋家的。他会花很多的时间在处理自己的心情上，而且又被动的要命；他坐在那儿一个晚上，可以静静的不发出任何声响，除非你是敏感的，敏感可以感受到他深藏心中的多情，否则你一定会觉得是跟木头在一块儿，一点情趣都没有。他是相当深情的，只是蟹子总是会采取观望的态度，以免伤害的发生；虽然刚开始时他总是看来静静的，不发一语，但是只要彼此熟悉了，你其实会发现他蛮疯的，而且有时你还会怀疑这个人是你当初所认识的他吗？别耽心，他还是他，只是月亮在改变而已。巨蟹座的男子是多变的，只是多变的是他的情绪，而不是他的个性。他在寻求安全感，在任何事物上他所要求的就是不受伤，他的心太敏感了，任何的风吹草动都会令他紧张，令他耽心他所拥有的一切会离他而去。你必须了解，他要的是安全感，但并不表示他不能保护一个家。他需要一个家，需要一个令他有安全感的家。他是好好先生，他相当恋家，这是许多女孩梦寐以求的典型；而且他会在家受到威胁的时候，勇敢的挺身捍卫家庭。他珍惜所有的事物，所以别浪费。你必须要好好的照顾他，否则影响你们婚姻的不会是外遇，可会是他的母亲。

狮子座男——如何去爱

狮子座的男子是要被崇拜的。他总是那么的强壮，令人觉得如此的有安全感，而又是那么的温暖、体贴，只是偶尔有些“霸道”；不过你可千万别这样对他表示，那可是会令他伤心的，他认为他只不过是喜欢让大家知道谁是主人而已。他的守护星是太阳，这就如同他的个性一般，那么的显而易见，一点儿也无法隐藏住。他同时是热情的，而且是那么的易燃。他会有点儿张牙舞爪般的爱现；而这只不过是他调情的方法之一罢了，你应该会喜欢才对，这可不是每个星座的男人都会的把戏。他真的需要被你真心的崇拜，你很少会看到像他这样能干的男人。更何况他喜欢把大把的银子花在你身上，使你看起来能高贵、大方，能完全配合他的身份。别对他调情，他永远知道男人该做什么事。狮子座的男人必须要像个国王，让他感觉到尊贵，是很重要的。尤其是在婚后，别让他觉得是在牢笼中当个狮王，那会很没面子的。有些事你得知道，你在他心中永远是那唯一的皇后，只是他也还会看看别的年轻母狮在做些什么事；不过他自己也很清楚的知道：只晒晒太阳就很棒了。

处女座男——如何去爱

处女座的男子是细腻的。不只是对事或对物，就连对感情也是如此，只是一般人很难了解他感情层面的看法；但是感情一定要实际，不可以有任何的矫情。他是分毫不差的，在任何事物上都是如此，他是如此要求完美，这也就难怪他在感情上会那么慎重的处理了。他对细节是非常注重的，当然，任何小事也都在他的计算之内，他同时也是挑剔的，对任何事物。所以你不要觉得意外，就算是对你--也是如此，你必需要快些习惯他，他有时没什么耐性；尤其是对那些一说再说而没有成长的人，如果你不是，那你必定是智慧型的女子。处女座的男子并非是那么的一丝不茍，他心中其实是充满温情的，只是他很不愿意让别人看到他的这一面。若是凡事都得用感情来思考的话，那会令他觉得一点原则也没有了。所以请原谅他在接触情感时会有些不自在，然而他一旦发现情感是真实的时候，一切又都回复自然了。他通常会是个好先生，他对感情是忠实的，不过他是有着洁癖的，所以家中至少要有些干净、整齐。在婚后，可能才会发现他的温柔及浪漫，但并不是可以经常如此，所以要有点分寸。他是非常重视成长的，因此学习仍旧是重要的，否则你会发现到“距离”将越来越远。

天秤座男——如何去爱

天秤座的男子都有着良好的气质，先不管他的长相是不是标准的天秤帅脸。很少人能不被他的优雅气质所吸引，你再仔细看看，他像不像一只花蝴蝶，穿梭在人与人之间，而重要的是每个人都喜欢他。你开始有点吃醋了吗？或者是……你早就开始吃醋了？！他很爱跟人接触，这使他可以充分的展现出他的社交风范，但这并不表示他爱热闹，他只是把朋友关系看得很重要。如果你真的能吸引他，他也会希望能和你一块儿溜出人群，但即使如此，他还是一只花蝴蝶；重点不在他会不会随便乱采蜜，而是有多少花朵在明暗之间羡慕你或怨恨你。另外，在他带你离开人群之前，他还得先克服他那总是会犹豫不决的特性.…… 当然，我们得再回到之前的另一个小小问题：他会随便的拈花惹草吗？如果你是个没什么创造力的人，答案将会有两种（这是他的惯性，不论如何一定有两个方面的想法）：不会以及会。在感情上，他要常保恋爱的感觉，他的生活、甚至呼吸，他的一切都在爱中。很少会发现天秤座的男子不爱布置家中的一切。在他的布置下，家会变的很温暖，令人感到舒适；这是因为他随是可能会在家中来个小小的聚会，或是社交活动的缘故。他爱人群、也爱当主人，这跟虚荣无关；别忘了他是那只花蝴蝶，他爱极了这种感觉，因那会令他自觉魅力十足。

天蝎座男——如何去爱

天蝎座的男子是个强者，不管他看来是不是很凶悍的样子。你绝不可只以他的外表来看这个男人，他内心的强悍绝对是你前所未见的。你很难再看到这样的男子了，他是那么的有自信、冷静，虽然他仍旧是热情的，不过这点却是很少人可以看得出来！更少人知道他是如何的渴望爱情，就像是在撒哈拉沙漠上渴望水一般。他的热情极度强烈，如果你很怕会被他的热情给烤干了，那愿上天保祐你千万别被族男子给碰上，因为这已经不是谁招惹谁的问题了，而是谁吸引谁。想逃！？恐怕不怎么容易。他是那么有魅力，你为什么要逃开呢？所有听说过族男子不只骁勇善战，而又非常有魅力的女人，都巴不得能沾上个族战士，而你却想要逃开？不过，你若是那种很容易受伤，或是受了伤很难复原的人，那你还真的别碰上的好，连沾都别沾一下。他的火气很大，这点你可得要知道，不要在你无意中，与别人调个开玩笑的情之后，你才发现他有个大脾气。他的占有欲可真是叫人受不了，他的眼睛更揉不进半粒砂子。别指示他应该要做什么，要用暗示的，他可不受你随意的支配。要记住，千万别伤了他的心，虽然他很坚强，但他却很易感；不要忘了，他可是个有破坏力的“复仇者”喔！

射手座男——如何去爱

射手座的男子令很多人觉得他像是个童子军，但是，他除了会助人之外，却也充满了危险。其实射手座的人都爱冒险，他寻求刺激的生活，同时以乐观的态度面对各种挑战，只不过他的乐观有些过于盲目而已。所以，当你发现他似乎没搞懂你的拒绝，并且一再的纠缠时，你就会了解盲目乐观的意思。跟他的盲目乐观一样，他同时也有着盲目的信任；其实你与他相处久了，你就会发现他似乎还有许多事情也都是盲目的，这其中包括了幸运。他似乎总是比别人幸运，这个男人不管对谁调戏，好像都不会被拒绝，不过，他好像不管说什么，都会有点像是在调情。他常会做件事，就是兴高采烈的将你丢向空中去，然后又被其他漂亮女生给吸引得转过身去，而忘了接你下来。他热爱自由，就像是在山林草原之中的野马；他会很高兴和你接触，但是别想用缰绳套住他，你愈想，他就愈会远离。就算让你套中了，你愈想拉近，他也就愈想逃。其实他比较喜欢去征服有智慧及有点野性的女子，愈让他捉不到的，他就会觉得越刺激。他做任何事情都很直接，就像说话，他常会伤到人。很多射手座的男子都在追寻偶然的关系，虽然有时会太过偶然，不过野马在未驯服之前，不也都是如此吗？对待他最好的方式，就是别对他过度依赖或太想占有他，让他明白：你永远是他最好的朋友及伴侣，尽管他心里仍不时会燃烧起浪迹天涯的梦……

摩羯座男——如何去爱　　　　　　

摩羯座的男子是保守的，但他的野心却令你很难相信他是保守的，不过他通常是不会让你看到他的野心。他隐藏的功夫相当独到，就像他如此轻易的混入人群中而不被发现一般。可是绝大部份的摩羯座男人不大会在感情上浪费太多时间，除非你的家世有助于他的事业。不过，他毕竟还是诚实的，不管是在事业上还是感情上、生活上。为了能够早些成功，到达那山的巅峰，他把握任何可以使他成功的机会。事实上，他的实际绝对不可能命令他在事业无成时，去谈个恋爱。就算你有助于他的事业，你也会发现他希望你早些进入状况，别再浪费生命。摩羯座的男人其实很浪漫，不是在安慰你哟！有很多大情圣是这个星座的。只是你要了解，他的浪漫只是常被他的纪律给链住了，因此绝大部份的时间里，他是严肃的，而且镇静。虽然他看来如此持重、认真、实际，但在他的内心中却期待着赞美。他会期待你能是个贤妻良母，而且和他那一大家族的家人们都能相处愉快，当然你也必须博得他所有家人的欢喜才行；任何对他家人批评的言语，他都会听成是你在要求“分手”。他珍惜任何事物，当然也包括你在内，你要晓得：他虽是那种花开得比较晚的种类，但花期却是久的很喔！

水瓶座男——如何去爱　　　　

水瓶座的男子总是让人觉得他是好奇的，而且最气人的是：他常会让你觉得他好像对你有意思时，才发现原来他不管是对谁都一样的好奇。他会比较欣赏那种用智慧将他吸引过来的女子，而不是在一头漂亮的秀发下面，以及在美丽的面孔后面什么也没有的花瓶。他的好奇使他很喜欢分析，他可以分析你的头发，也会分析你的动作，当然也会分析你讲话的方式；有时就连你无意义的动作，他也可以分析个半天。有时，你若是故意表现得好像不注意他，或是无视于他的存在，那他对你的兴趣可就会提高许多了。他的感情一定是从朋友关系开始，而且就算是结了婚，也要一直和他保持朋友的关系，这点非常重要。你必须要知道，在他心中认为朋友是很重要的；而且你在和他交往时就应该发现他对朋友永远比对你好，因为他将你和他的关系看得很亲近，就像是自己的家人一样。他喜欢有立场的女子，但可不是那些卫道主义者或是对女权运动拥护得太激动的女人。他是晚婚的人，而且绝大部份的原因除了找不到可以和他心智匹配的女子之外，就是他太热爱自由。水瓶座的男子，可以让你的生活多采多姿，而且你只要做他的朋友，就不会感到无聊了！

双鱼座男——如何去爱　　　

双鱼座的男子常会让你觉得他像是梦一样，然后你会发现，他所呼吸的并不是空气，而是梦。在他认为梦并不代表想像力丰富，他认为梦是能令他在现实社会中继续活下去的最后依靠。如果你将他这个拥有梦的权利给剥夺掉的话，你会发现这个男人就完全没有令你觉得可爱的地方了。双鱼座的男人倒真的是可爱的，而且你很少会发现比实际年龄看起来要来得老的鱼；绝大部份的鱼儿看来都是比实际年龄要年轻，这是他最爱的保护色之一；但有时他也会为这个许多人梦寐难求的特质而困扰不已，因为这会使他看来不够牢靠，尤其是在异性面前。所有的鱼儿都在寻求虚伪的安全感，因此，他常会让你觉得不是你所想像的那样，而他也总是会带着你的想像力四处乱跑。鱼儿一直有着朝相反方向行事的欲望，同时也喜欢隐藏真正的动机，并且让别人所知道的永远不会是正面的答案。鱼儿虽喜欢闪烁其词，但这也是想像力的一种啊。双鱼座的男子的确浪漫，这也归功于他丰富的想像力，但有时他的逃避心态却也令许多想要去喜欢他的人所诟病。年长的鱼儿比较会控制责任问题，同时，所有的鱼儿都需要被肯定，这会帮助他勇敢的去面对问题。他不会告诉你他内心的真正想法，你也只得用心去感受。哎，钓鱼嘛！！

My Sagittarius Zhuzhu----->

射手座男~Sagittarius

Sagittarius make alot of pple feel he is a scout, but, other than helping pple, he is also full of danger. actually Sagittarius all love adventuring/take risk, he seeks an exciting life, and is optimistic in accepting challenges, just that his optimistic is abit blinded. so, when u find that he didn't realize ur rejection, and keeps pestering u, u will know wat is the meaning of blind optimistism. just like his blind optimistism, he also trust blindly; when u are with him for some time, u will find that he is blind in many aspects, this includes luck.

he always seem luckier than others, no matter who he flirts with, pple don't seem to reject him, but, no matter wat he said, all sounds abit like flirting. he will do this often, throw u happily into the air, get attracted by other beautiful girls and turn his back, and forgot to catch u when u fall.

he loves freedom, just like the wild horss on the plains; he will be very happy to be in contact with u, but don't try to rope him in, the more u wish to, the further he go away. even if u caught him, the more u pull him in, the more he wants to escape. actaully he prefers to go conquer girls who are intelligent and abit wild, the more he can't get, the more excitment he feels. everything he do is very straight forward, like talking, he hurt pple frequently. many Sagittarius are in pursuit of coincidental/casual relationships, sometimes it is too coincidental/casual, but isn't wild horses that haven't been tamed, all the same? the best way to deal with him, is not to depend on him too much or too possessive, let him understand: u will always be his best friend or companion, although his heart will still dream of wandering around the world......

2009-04-24T09:40:00.003+08:00

Yst after work go to Jurong East to meet my zhuzhu..Den i meet him at Daiso, we walk around the shop n he brought 3 items at there.. As in the shop all the item selling onli $2 onli n most of the thing there is from japan. At there, i saw some of the item that can help me to do sushi easier so i was thinking when i free i will come here buy then on the weekend i do sushi n let my zhuzhu eat. After payment, we head down to carpark as he brought the measuring tape jus to measure his car wiper. Cos he wanna buy new wiper liao n the brand is Rain-X (hmmm..Dunno how to spell, if spell wrongly...zhuzhu must correct me hor..haha).

After tat next programme is DINNER TIME.. Haha..while we heading to the carpark, we actually saw this restaurant is a japanese restaurant. So zhuzhu ask me wanna to haf japan food anot. Of Cos i wan la..I Love Japan food liao..The restaurant atmosphere there still can be acceptable la.. but the food there not reali nice liao..we spend almost $40 to settle our dinner..hehe...

after dinner, we head down to Giant to buy his car wiper. we were looking here n there to find a place where onli selling car accessories de.. finally, we found the section that display all the car accessories. We also found the wiper that he wants.but too bad, the choices over there is little. As all of them cannot fit zhuzhu car wiper size. We walk out the giant without buying anything..den zhuzhu say still early, he wanted to go mostafa center.. to buy the car accessories. I too excited to go there liao..As i first time going there n somemore wif my zhuzhu..hehe...Veri Happy..haha..We went straight to fourth floor as onli there got sell the car accessories..we walk around here n there as if there is like a playground.. We buy two new sponge..Yeh!!! next time can wash car wif my zhuzhu liao..Can't wait to use the sponge cos can wash the car wif him together..hehe..den we saw the car wiper that he wan. The column got quite many choice for him to choose but den most of the wiper still cannot fit his car de leh..no choice lo.. den he say that maybe onli got car shop den got sell..Hmmm...*thinking thinking* hehe...den continue walking...after that he found another one which is the sun shade that he wanna put inside his lorry n his car..den after that we continue walking...den he also buy the Rain-X n the tyre foam. after that we head to the cashier..n the total is $36+..still ok la..if go outside buy, i dun think we can get this kind of price ba..dunno what outside marketing also..haha..

It almost veri late liao..we faster come out from the mostafa head to the carpark den buy some drink, standing outside the 7-Elevan smoke awhile. after we head back to my home..hehe...

2009-04-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

Today saturday..on my way going to sentosa...not play..is work..hee..weird rite..tot i working office rite..last time i use to work at sentosa..den after i left..but i told my friend if he need me..i can help him during the weekend..thursday veri happy lo..can dun need to wait for LTA de transport..my zhuzhu..come to site n give me surprise..haha..so happy..on that day fast n furious part 4 on showing..well the ending not that good den we expected..cos the sad thing is leddy haf been murder in the show..veri sad lo..after the show we head dwn to outram park wan of the coffee shop to haf our supper..hehe..den yst..friday..accompany my zhuzhu go work together..which i always do every sunday..yst was a public holiday "good friday"..hehe..den after work accompany him n his collegue to sim lim square..buy his new radio..his one oreadi veri old n going to spolit liao..so he decide to go buy a new set..wao lucky his friend nas is a regular customer of the shop..the set usual price was 230 n the boss gave him 150..quite cheap n worth it also..

2009-04-06T20:57:00.005+08:00

update update....got ppl complaint i nv update my blog liao..haha..

ok ok...let me update about the weekend happening..hehe..

Saturday is the Qing Ming Festival..My family went to kulai pray for my ah ma..My passport expired liao cannot go..Sob sob..miss my ah ma so much..I overnite at my Zhuzhu de hse on friday. Den saturday afternoon went Lim Chu Kang wif him and his family.

Sunday accompany him go work together...dunno whether should say is a good day or a bad day leh..cos half way while he working suddenly raining liao..den keep praying faster finish work..cos raining veri heavy..but around 3++ the control say go for the last order liao..den we faster drive to tuas den head back to home..after that i faster go bath n rush him go bath cos i wan to go Vivo walk walk..hehe..hmm..around 5+ den we ready to go out..cos we watching the taiwan series "爱"...His parent oreadi watch until 100 over episode..damn far away from tv lo..haha...den after that we head to Vivo..after that we walk walk, go apply his singtel credit card.. den we go look for my handphone pouch cos my handphone got alot of scratches...so heart pain..hehe...

den after that we go to guardian buy dye hair de...he complaint that his hair colour no more liao n wanna try other colour..den we choose choose here see see there..den get gold colour for his hair..den after that we head dwn to mount faber for drink..He order a vanilla ice blended..n i order shirley temple n one onion ring..hehe...we tok alot of things tok about the past n present..den it abit too late liao den we faster go home n help him dye hair..

after i help him dye de...waiting for the colour to come out...see his nerd nerd de face..haha..

His Behind...

I dye de leh...Look professional anot..haha..got learn de hor...dun play play hor...

2009-02-17T23:50:00.001+08:00

Today went to one of my best friend's father funeral..wen I saw her, her eyes was swollen just like wen my grandma passed away..is the same pain that u have lose someone important..even wen i asked her is she alright she keep saying she's fine..but I think just putting face to let ppl thinks that she's fine..but nobody noe her pain..everybody have to go through the cycle..from baby to teens, teens to adult and from adult to old after that u die..nobody noe the future..
Past two years I been waiting for this dream to come true and it reali comes true..he contact me back le.. He had change le..becoming more caring more concern for me than before..before valentine day, I brought him a watch from city chain..in a occasion we went out..and we reach my house dwnstair, he claim that he having a headache and I accompany him to let him slp in his car..after he wake up, he said the pain is still there..so I went up to my hse and get panadol for him..at the same time I brought the watch with me..after he finish his medicine that I pass him the watch..after opening, he told me that he is surprise that I will bring the watch...I jus can't wait until valentine day...I wanna see his reaction, I wanna hear what will he say... Maybe last time, I had own to him...that y now I totally fall in the trap again..everytime my colleagues say comments about him...I feel so happy..
Recently I just fall sick..until now my cough still not recover..over the weekend I over night at his hse just like last time..even he is aslp and got wake by my coughing..he still pad me to make me comfort..in my heart feeling so sweet..
Jus like today...he give me a surprise come dwn to my hse and look for me..den bring me for dinner and send me back home again..jus like last time he always do wen ah ma Nv cook dinner..no matter how late..he still will come dwn n fetch me and bring me for my dinner..almost every sunday..I accompany him to work together..until most of his colleagues knows..
Sometime I keep thinking..will this sweetness just for the time being??I dunno..n I dun even dare to think..cos I told myself that treasure what I have now n dun wanna regret after losing..I have lose u once, I reali dun wan to lose u twice.. I Love You...

2009-01-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

7 months ago....

u msg me this

is quite surprize that u know wat i working now..where u get to know wat i working n driving car now ? anyway how r u ?

and i reply

well, i still got go out with weiming and kata...so sometime i would ask them about you...but how u know that i noe everything about you...well, quite fine...concentrating on my studies right now graduating soon....what about you??

and we started over convesation like this....

time pass so fast...

i start to know that u actually got read my blog...I got to know that u nv delete my msn but onli block...

On ur bdae that day...i went to jurong point and buy u a small cake and wanna celebrate wif you..we went to hill top and wait for 12 midnight and blow a candle and sing birthday song with you..after that you give me a kiss on my forehead...

You remember..got one day my grandma went in to hospital and u send me there...u keep comfort me not to worry...and surprise that u gave to me...out of the sudden u say u at my hse dwnstair...and my ex-collegue bdae i ask u to accompany me to go...every morning i called u to wake up.. i miss alot of things...i miss the hug...i miss yr voice..and i miss u too...

2009-01-10T15:14:00.001+08:00

你怎么连话都说不清楚

123 I'm another
有谁愿意
当这一个
多出来的
trouble maker
but look that's my luv seal my lips don't let it drop off
try let go
不想多想
where we'll go
话说到这里　放手
不要你难过
想别的
可是在你眼中察觉什么一闪而过
怎么像是寂寞
于是我会更沉默
没说的
全世界差点都弄懂了那是什么
而我尴尬笑着走开
只能够装做不懂
怎么能拆穿你的不同
Oh偏偏
这地球这么小这么挤这么瘦
太阳刻意晒得那么凶
为什么你出现在他出现以后
你怎么连话都说不清楚
那温柔的tone我听得清楚
我站在他的身边
你站在我的面前
怎么这样心里会难过
你怎么连话都说不清楚
那温柔的痛我记得清楚
他站在我的面前
你经过我的身边
忽然之间心里又难过
为什么td>倩

2008-12-31T20:54:00.001+08:00

Few more hours to be 2009 le...time pass so fast...today I going out with my bf..but my mind keep thinking of you..I dunno y..u noe the rainnie so that I like..actually is for u to listen..the song lyrics everything I wanna tell u...u know..

2008-12-30T23:01:00.001+08:00

Haha..see my table....so messy...have been busy until finish work...now just reach home so tired and lazy...It gald that my I grandma just came back from hospital...so happy...but she Still have to go back for Check up.. But I cannot acc her to go..so ah bui will be . going..time pass So fast..I at this office going to be 3 months liao...my probation going to finish Soon..dunno When can move in to office..very boring outside leh..lucky you lent me your pda,so that I can msn in the office...hehe So happy..I enjoy going out with him everytime...however time always pass So fast..I always wish the time can Stop...so that I can accompany him longer..but my wish always cannot Cum true cos i noe it won't come true..I may look Childish but wherever I with him I tends to be very childish I also dunno why...I hope my confusion can be solve asap..I wish.... @_@

2008-12-29T19:56:00.000+08:00

I love being with you..I love the times I spend with you..The fun, the joy, the voice of yours, the way u slp n the way I always I call u to wake up..everyday calling u to wake up it had become part of my life..The place that u bring me go had deeply crave inside of my heart..This two year I keep wishing that you will come back..Finally my dreacome true even all this year I actually wanna msg to wish u happy birthday but this year u r in front of me and i'm helping u to celebrate..next year and all the years can I help u to celebrate ur birthday and is the 1st one to celebrate with u..how I wish on my birthday that day u can celebrate with me??

2008-12-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

爱太痛 - 吴克群

吃不能吃睡不能睡
没有了你全都不对
我都学不会把爱敷衍
用笑容来把眼泪催眠

笑不能笑哭不敢哭
人不像人鬼不像鬼
朋友都说这不过失恋
但我却连呼吸都胆怯

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把爱割舍
我不能够不能够不爱了
我不能睡

能不能不爱了因为爱太痛了
我痛得快死了却无法把你忘了
能不能不爱了爱情它太痛了
我不能够不能够不爱了

2008-12-01T20:14:00.001+08:00

带我走...

每次我总一个人走
交叉路口自己生活
这次你却说等我走

某个角落就你和我
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌

在你的身后计算的步伐
每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

每次我总独自远走
保持缄默不皱眉头
这次你却说一起走

彼此温柔从此以后
像土壤抓紧花的迷惑
像天空缠绵雨的汹涌

在你的身后计算的步伐
每个背影每个场景
都有发过的梦

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

白马溜过漆黑尽头
潮汐袭来浪花颤动
凝在海岸结成了墨

蔷薇朝向草原气球
邮差传来一地彩虹
刻在心中拍打着脉搏

带我走到遥远的以后
带走我一个人自转的寂寞
带我走就算我的爱你的自由
都将成为泡沫
我不怕带我走

带我走就算我的爱你的自由
都将成为泡沫
带我走

2008-10-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

周杰伦—说好的幸福呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呢
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呢
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢
怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呢.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.
我都还记得.
你不等了.说好的.幸福呢
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

2008-08-18T23:41:00.003+08:00

What is love...
1.
I Cry For The Times That You Were Almost Mine,
I Cry For The Memories I've Left Behind,
I Cry For The Pain, The Lost, The Old, the New..
I Now Cry For The Times I Thought I Had You.

2.
You make me smile for no reason whatsoever,
Y ou make me laugh at the unfunniest things,
B ut most of all, you make me love you...
W hen I shouldn't be loving you.

3.
Don't be too good i will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too sweet, I might fall.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...

4.
A meeting between two beings
who complete one another,
who are made for
each other, borders already,
in my opinion, on a miracle.

5.
Love is when someone hurts you. And you get so mad but you don't yell at him because you know it would hurt his feelings.

so which wan would you choose?? Single or attact better??

2008-06-30T09:22:00.000+08:00

Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes
with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy,
maybe, maybe
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding-
Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

2008-06-19T02:09:00.003+08:00

all this is recently mi...too long nv update liao..and i think my wish have come true also...so maybe i will wish a new wish in my bdae..hehe...thinking now....still got 8 months starting from july to my bdae...hehe...

2008-05-12T04:10:00.002+08:00

It has been a long time never blog liao... Time really turning veri fast and i going to graduate from hartford soon..after this year june..and i will start my real life from there..It had been a long time...Its like jus happen yesterday...
Well, i get to noe that he is now working at PSA, maybe working as a driver which driving those heavy loading..he finally get his wish to get all the license..he no longer need to visit the bbdc le...i felt happy for him..i also wish he could find a gf sooner or later..it has been almost 2 years..maybe outside i might look i had give out on him..but wen i was at home..i still will look out for his information..
jus like what jia nee haf said: she feel abit shy wen looking at wei jie..but for mi and him might be a ashamed to him..from the start he reali did wrong thing and not mi...i think i should noe that whatever i can done i have done my best..i always tell myself..whatever i can done i have done...is jus onli pple willing to give out anot..truth maybe my current bf treat mi reali good..i do appreiate him too..that y i willing to give in and give out..but he will not replace the important place in my heart... jus like i cannot replace a gal in his heart..so i think it might be fair for us..as we also noe we might be suffering, but we do appreiate each other and love each other.. although sometime he might be playful at a time and sometime to be stubborn..but as for a gal, nobody can be torturate this kind of nonsense..i think his ex do...but i not...im a fragile gal..i cannot stand any nonsense from anyone or any guy..but why all my ex or my current bf haf to treat mi like this...it is all the gals can be so easy to play or sometime gals have to down themevlse and get happiness..breaking up people relationship is reali make them so happy..have they think b4 what if the same thing happen to their beloved man do the same thing to them too...how would they feel..I don't know..But i can i will miserable...

2007-12-05T18:07:00.000+08:00

你最近还好吗

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

ps: If can turn back the time, i really hope that i can hold you back. And wont choose letting you go.. Will i see you again..Will i talk to you again???? Can i contact back you again... How I wish...

2007-11-27T01:52:00.000+08:00

Today my day wasn't that good. While on the way going school, listening to jay chou music.'He'came to my mind again, thinking the days we spend together, the place we travel, the cake that i bake for him. It seems that just had happen yesterday. But it had been almost 2 two years after our break up. By looking at his friendster, he seems to be living very good by now. Sell off his bike and buys a new car changing new job...It seems that he leading a good life now. Remember of the past, the times he go for the theory, he always complaint that he failed. But i guess he got a help by his friends or ex gf ba. Really miss the days. Use to calling him at 2pm wen i wake up. Then will chat until i go work in the evening time, on the weekend will went in second link for supper and pump oil. Maybe it could be a memories until now but i could still remember everything and even is his birthday..

2007-11-24T12:41:00.000+08:00

害怕..
wu~~~~~~~~~~~wo~~~~~~~~~~~
我突然觉得有点怕
爱跟生活的一切
你以为我知道怎么拆开
我们的想法落差
*我的爱
是说停不能停
已经弄的不能说是曾经
也可说出我是错的
爱未曾变成真的
也没藏到多少你需要的爱
我不再
去执拙我是谁
我是我在夜里掉的眼泪
也可说我看不开的
为你我能做的
竟还没让你相信是爱情
左右你我
而哭泣都是因为爱
也逼自己不掉泪
让往日不只是有你
这网里我也撑着
拼了命的守着

2007-08-20T04:36:00.000+08:00

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is high.
You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person.
And in return, you expect the same from who you love.
Any sign of straying, and you'll end things.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is medium.
You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love...
But you've definitely been burned enough to know better.
You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist.

Independence:

Your independence is medium.
In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time."
You usually find it easy to be part of a couple.
But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

2007-08-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

everytime i keep thinking what is life..and what is my future will be? i like walking blindly towards my future..now i onli noe that i have to study in the day and nite working in the restruant...everyday the same routine...onli wen i study late...maybe can go out wif my friends for drink and dinner...is like every human will do the same...but i still prefer day life..at least nite time i can go out wif my friends for clubbing...at least got some life...as for nite time u dunno where to go for dinner and where to go clubbing cos wen the time u finish work mostly of the restruant is close and the bar and the pub is almost closing...relationship u have to give to ur loves one..and if you wan a long lasting relationship is so hard to find...couple always quarrel..if u find a relationship that both cannot acompany each other onli that can contact through phone..u will always thinking the wrong ways..cos for gals..they always nv believe in their bgr (boys gals relationship)..same as for the boy also if they love their galfrends much...but some how...sometime people dun like to be control by anyone...if there is ppl who control you..you tend to think that they are irratatine..cos they every minute or every hour will keep calling you asking where are you..who are you with or more...but wen they dun control you or keep calling you..we always thinks that they dun care bout you..and even some will say they dun love you enough...we always want to ask for more..but we dun dare to...human will never think is enough..we always asking for more...when a guy dun treat u good..u think they are not suitable for you and we tends to ask for break up...so we can look for more...and what bout those ppl who truly in love...but wen they are force to break up becos their family...should we pity for dem...jus like my situation...i still thinking whether should i give up this relationship...but i love him so much that my mind set telling dun give if u reali love him...but as for my family...what should i do..i'm elder grand daughter now...i cannot leave my grand ma alone..she loves mi alot..i also love her alot too...just like i love my bf like that..but i have to choose between my family and my relationship...how i wish i can disappear in the air...so that i can dun think so much...how i wish i can escape from everything not to think not to see..not quarrling no argument...can be as free like a bird...no stress can jus freely in the sky flying...

2007-07-05T04:55:00.000+08:00

Argh super boring ah...Now having school holiday..Damn sianz lo..Stupid Dear dear...giving mi cold shoulder this week...Veri angry..Sometime reali feels like giving out this relationship..But Oways wanna bluff myself, tomorrow he will be veri good..But i think veri difficult ba..yst he told that he fall sick liao...ask him to take care drink more water..but he seems to be hack care my words...Today call him, his phone off..Den msg him..ask to drink more water..if not yet recover, den dun work at obar liao..still ignoring....Wao reali get up to my nerve liao... After work, call him..toking to mi in a fruaster voice...Nabei, care about u still give ppl attiude..reali veri heart pain lo...I wondering if one day, i reali dun give u the care i use to give... What will happen huh...today heard from farhan that dear's brother is getting marry on the 21 july... But le...he never tell mi anything le..Plus asking mi to move to his hse, i think he oso jus lying to mi ba.. dunno le...like weird weird le...reali miss the day wen his bike is down..we still can go shopping, go ktv..den take bus home togther... but now seems to be changing.. I doin my own thing he busy wif his work and study so as mi..like we got no time for each other..
today tammi came down to indochine...But everybody seems to be veri busy..maybe yes ba...today everybody like walking fast or else some will use run de.. busy until i perisering every where..today sales can manage to get 1ok..i think consisted as good sales liao ba...bar today veri quiet...due to 1 july every bar are not allow to smoke so everybody prefer sitting outside...as what most of the customer say....u go clubbing and the bar and pub is not allow to smoke..like no life and veri troublesome oso...cos the day is so hot, yet u wanna smoke u have to sit at outside the somking area.... haiz no choice..plus the cigratte price raise up 40 cent more..na bei....from $11.20 now at $11.60...damn expenvise lo..thinking wanna to quit somking liao..ltr like my dear like that say wanna quit, quit until ling ling long long...haha...in the end the result wen i ask him...he say nv quit..i laugh up and dwn..haha.. k la...stop my rubbish here..tml working at 3pm...yes money money...faster cum into my pocket ba......haha..

2007-07-04T04:24:00.000+08:00

转身的时候

看到你开心快乐的时候

我的心就像是

飞跃的云朵轻轻的

跟着你的脚步向前走

不让你看到最远的我

听到你哭泣声音的时候

我的手就像是清柔的微风

慢慢的拭去你的泪水

让它走不需留意最近的我

为什么就只想为你守候

在你身边就够远近

我都接受

每次当你转身的时候

我的泪在流

却只告诉自己

让你看到我笑容

每次当你转身的时候

我的心在痛

只能默默看着

你就消失在我眼中

让你走

伸出手紧握不放你的我

终于明白应该让你更开阔

紧紧的拥抱你的身影一分钟

就当作是告别步骤

什么时候开始

我忘了自己

会不会哀愁

为什么明明该哭

却觉得很幸福

在看到你离去的背影～喔

2007-06-30T07:51:00.000+08:00

haha...look like i have long time nv update liao..too busy of preparing my exam..so stress..until myself got sick..now got flute and cough..stupid cough making mi going to die soon..everytime cough until i cannot catch the next breath..then flute le...is nose blocking...whenever i going slp, one of the side confirm block..da bu le ta han....haha...now trying to learn malay..so that next time can communicate wif my dear dear...haha..but dunno how spell it first..now onli learning how to speak onli..hehe..today 3am..i try to call him..den he told mi that he now to packing up..so i ask him go busy first..around almost 4am..he msg mi that he reach hm liao..so i try to call him..after that he reject my call and use his hm phone to call mi back..we tok for awhile..we chat about work, chat alot of things but cant remember liao..but today sat he is not working at the office in the morning so i can dun need to give him morning call..but later night time he will be working at obar..frm 9pm until 4am..so late wor..but almost my time finish work every weekend...
oh ya...i almost forget..today at the work place today customer like all veri veri veri papaya de lo....so what u got to cum here to drink...but at least show some respest la...we not dog we r human....can say excuse me...and not wei cum take my order...nabei...ask that man go and die...idiot...so what u visa is preuimum card..big deal is it...but oso veri buget..nabei...stingy guy...haha
argh to tired liao..next time den write again...my eyes is shutting liao..

signing off at 8.06am

2007-06-07T04:07:00.000+08:00

Can I Hold Your Hands To The End Of Time..
Will You Accompany Mi to the End Of Time..
Will You??

The time passes so fast that i reali dunno am i wasting my time or he is his my future..He can't gave mi what i want the answer.. Cause i never ask him before..I really don't know what should i ask..Wen i see my ex friendster profile, it seems that he reali veri happy wif his gf now..From break up until now, he had been wif her for more than 12 month le..And how bout mi..A bf that can't give mi a promise..A bf that i can't gave him lots of trust.Sometime i have reali suspecting him..Looking out the road, hope can see his bike..But his bike must not pillion a gal..Even whenever i call him, he will call mi back immediatly if he is at hm, he will use his hse phone to call mi back. telling mi that he is at hm..but i still cannot give him a full trust..Even everybody say i choose to patch back wif him means i have oreadi gave him the trust..Ya..i know he might have change.but there always a crack in this relationship.you can't gave him a full trust..as you nv know when he going to cheat your feeling again..
He had been treating mi very well...Whenever i need his help, he will always be there for mi..i veri gladful that he is veri responsible bf..But sometime, there might have a crack..maybe he treat mi well is because that he letting me down in the past. but now he jus wanna save this relationship..or maybe he just doing for the sake of it...I never know..
I may look foolish to stay on this relationship..But i reali hope to see a miracle that can happen on mi..i reali hope to hold his hand tight till i will nv let it go..even sometime i might say he not good, he is don't love mi at all..maybe he might treating mi like mei mei..but i just can't face the fact..Because I LOVE HIM!!! i just onli talk from my mouth but soft in my heart..cause i gave him more den 3 chance that is oreadi over my limit..i might be stubborn..but is jus can't afford to lose him..losing him is jus like i losing one of my family..i might not cry in front of him..jus don't him seeing my tears out frm my eyes..showing him i can be strong enough to taking good care of myself..But in the end i will still find my friends, my kor(s) to cry..and even i will go drink wif my friends or i will drink in my rm..jus don't dun wish letting him see my weakness..

2007-06-02T07:29:00.000+08:00

Just came back frm work and after work we went to watch the sherk 3. Quite a stupid and boring show...i fallen sleep inside the cinema...OMG!!! This my first time fallen asleep inside the cinema...But maybe i oso veri tired frm work oso ba...plus today i wake up quite early for my bike practical...Today, went to the bbdc....tot today i can escape frm the pillon ppl...cos my course got 3 guy and mi onli 1 gal..tot can dun need to pillon ppl...in the end got force to do it... reali hate tat intructor...idiot...but anyway...after one round of experience...i just refuse to let anyone to pillon mi....Cos i rather let dear dear pillion oso dun wan let ppl who i dunno to pillion...reali veri idiot lo..now i can go for my next prac liao...but now i must pass my rtt asap...so that i can go to the next practical...haha...hope i can faster pass my bike...so tat i can take bike go skool liao...den i can dun need to wake up so early...den can reach hm early after work...Today after work call him...Seems that he veri fasturated to tok to mi like tat....veri angry...idiot lo..jus wanna check where is him..in the end got back this kind of repones...haiz next time better not to call him...so that i wont get back a irratatine respone...correct..am i rite...

2007-05-28T10:27:00.000+08:00

I have fufil my dreams le...haha....i haf buy my laptop liao...so shiok...i reali think tat i veri lucky to haf a supportive family...whatever i wan they will get it for mi..even we dun cum in rich family...but my parent will get for mi and sister whatever we wan..aslong we study hard...so we r bless to be in this family..

yesterday dear accompany mi go sim lim to see all the laptop..now the technology gettting better ppl ask for the things oso getting better...one laptop the max can go until $3000++...so expenvise...haiz..we go to many shop and going higher higher floor...until we see one of his frens...den we slowly scroll for taking look at the laptop...but oso selling mi at cheaper price...haha..so shiok..my laptop that should be selling at 1999++ but onli selling mi at 1750...plus still got webcam le...1.3 mega...haha..
den on the way going back home...he pillon mi back reali is veri big difficulty of sitting his bike...cos of the laptop..cos i reali dunno where to put it...den he ask mi put it in the middle of us..but the den i cant hold his oil tank...but in the end we still can make it to home..haha..but reali bless to haf a bf like him..cos he willing to accompany wen i need him...it seems tat we veri long time nv go shopping togther liao..until yesterday he accompany mi go buy laptop..even this cant count as shopping..but we reali dun time to accompany each other due to both of us need to work and study...onli sunday we den haf time to for each other...

but no matter what...i reali should treasure what i haf now..regartless what will happen in the future...if one day even we haf break up..i oso wont regret..cos i haf use to what haf they treat mi b4..so i will stay happy and be my own self...But anyway i love you dear.....

2007-05-15T19:49:00.000+08:00

其实很爱你

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留

2007-04-10T22:48:00.000+08:00

雨不停落下来
花怎么都不开
尽管我细心灌溉
你说不爱就不爱
我一个人欣赏悲哀
爱只剩下无奈
我一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间
永远都夹着空白
缺了一块
就不精采
紧紧相依的心
如何 say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼
把手放开不问一句say goodbye
当作最后一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡
今后都不管
只要你能愉快
有一句感慨
还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前替我
再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

2007-04-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

I hate myself...I hate him...I hate myself being veri foolish...Why i haf to believe in his words...Why i give him so many chance..Why he can't treasure this last chance i gave it to him...Last night, i went for my supper break..After finish eating..i went to 7-Eleven and buy drink after tat i have a chat wif my friends...After that i saw him wif bao, bao gf and another girl beside him...i was frost...i dunno wat to do now...i immediatly call him..but he nv pick up...i msg him..he oso never reply..i call him many time until he off his phone...Then i msg him..Telling him that we r over..Then he msg mi and call mi..But i Nv pick up...Why he so late to reply my call, my msg...Is he trying to hide something from that gal...And why he want to go clarke qurey...Is he trying to show mi something or what..I dunno...This is last time i cry for him..That no more of tears coming out frm my eyes...

2007-03-20T15:35:00.000+08:00

Walk Me Home

(Mandy Moore)

walk me home, i don't wanna go all the way alone

baby would you walk with me home

baby would you take my hand

come with me now to a special land

baby would you walk with me home

3 A.M., you're on my mind once again

i must have been dreamin

thought i felt your heartbeat just then

and i wondered how it would be

if i was your lady and you were my friend

i would put my heart in your hands

and it would never end

CHORUS

baby would you walk me home? (walk me home)

i don't wanna go all the way alone (all alone)

baby would you walk with me home?

baby would you take my hand? (take my hand)

come with me now to a special land (ohh)

baby would you walk with me home?

ohh ohhhoh (2x)

la la la la la la

i hold your picture

next to my heart all the time

ohh yeah baby

you're my dream come true

so glad you're mine

and i wonder how it would be

if i was your lady and you were my friend

i would put my heart in your hands

and it would never end

CHORUS

everyday and night i wanna hold you(hold you)

understand i am going to love you

in my own special way (in my own special way)

(CHORUS x2)

ohh

won't you walk with me home?

2007-03-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

No promises

Hey baby when we are together

Doin things

That we love

Everytime your near

I feel like im in heaven

Feeling high

I dont want to let go girl

I just need you to know girl

I dont wanna run away baby

Your the one i need tonight

No promises Baby

Now I need to hold you tight

I just wanna die in your arms

Here tonight

Hey baby when we are together

Doin things

That we love

Everytime your near i feel like im in heaven

Feelin high

I dont want to let go girl

I just need you to know girl

I dont wanna run away baby

Your the one i need tonight

No promises Baby

Now i need to hold you tight

I just wanna die in your arms

I dont want to run away

I want to stay forever

Through time and time

No promises

I dont want to run away

I dont want to be alone

No promises baby

Now i need to hold you tight

Now and forever my love

No promises

I dont want to run away

Youre the one i need tonight

No promises

Baby Now i need to hold you tight

I just want to die in your arms

here tonight

2007-03-10T05:31:00.000+08:00

I NEED YOU

I don't need a lot of things

I can get by with nothing

Of all the blessings life can bring

I've always needed something

But i've got all i want

When it comes to loving you

You're my only reason

You're my only truth

I need you like water

Like breath, like rain

I need you like mercy

From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms

That carries me through

I need you

You're the hope that moves me

To courage again

You're the love that rescues me

When the cold winds, rage

And it's so amazing

'cause that's just how you are

And i can't turn back now

'cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water

Like breath, like rain

I need you like mercy

From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms

That carries me through

I need you

Oh yes i do

I need you like water

Like breath, like rain

I need you like mercy

From heaven's gate

There's a freedom in your arms

That carries me through

I need you

Oh yes i do

I need you

2007-03-07T23:53:00.000+08:00

Just finish my winston tooth operation liao...Abit veri pain now, onli can eat soft food like porridge...can't bite anything for around one week..Veri sianz lo...Like getting to hell like tat everything gotta stop...And the stupid doctor hurt my lips...Den give the reason is becos my mouth too small liao...so no choice..What the hell...My mouth small den cannot be gentle abit mehz....If any wound leave it behind..i sure find the stupid doctor out de...damn it...
Today went to Bukit panjang plaza wif my sis Qiq...For shopping..In the meanwhile we were shopping veri happy...he Gave mi a msg...It been so long and now den he give a msg..but..I still cant get his answer...Y he oways wanna escape frm my question..To mi, He is not mature enough for mi..onli noe how to escape frm the fact but not facing it...but i like him..i like the ways he care bout mi...the ways he kissing my forhead wen going to slp..the ways he pampering mi to slp...the way he bring the water and the medicine wen i having headache...But Y he still wanna betray mi...Why his heart can keep another gal...but not mi....I reali dunno...Anyone noe how to answer???

2007-02-21T13:36:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

So far had came in a new year...so new year haf new target...Now my new target will be my studies....Since 2004 i haf waste lots of time on playing and working...i think is enough le ba..get myself upgrade NOW!!!
And to him...I onli will say stay happy...go do what u think is rite...n be wif her..i will give blessing to u and her...u are still young, still got lot things to do...jus go and do that u think is rite..wont make it a regret...okok..stay happy always...
K...Now to all my friends...Erm...Even some haf went NS, some haf went in jail but i think will haf one day we can gather together....i trust my feeling de...And ppl who r outside...stay health and happy..Erm...still got what to say huh...Dont know liao le...Aiya...go do anything that wont make a regret can liao...okok... HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2007-02-18T14:56:00.000+08:00

寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你

2007-02-17T20:43:00.000+08:00

So long nv log in to tis blog liao...alot of things that happen in my life...Someone came in to my life but he left again...cos is i the one who chase him away frm my station...

reali got hurt so deep...And he himself dunno who to choose..Why tis things oways happen in mi...reali disappointed in tis relationship...Actually wanna give him a chance to explain to mi face to face...but he choose not to..And ashamed to face mi...If u think tat u r ashamed to face mi and tok to mi...In the first place u noe what will happen and u noe how i feel...u shouldnt do tis stupid things to mi...Giving u more den two chance...Isnt it enough for u...What u asking for...U can make a effort make a call to her...u can make effort to msg her u haf reach hm...but y to mi u cannot....it seem tat u like her more den u like mi...All i ask u to be my faithful bf...u cannot do it mahz...is it veri diffcult???

2006-05-12T03:30:00.000+08:00

i have learnt a lesson today frm my friend...

what is first love...
first love is the meaning of impression...When u think tat u haf a crush wif someone...is not love..tat a impression in ur life...when time goes by..u will think tat u dun reali love tat person..but juz onli having a good impression wif her...but what is love...nobodys knows...but onli romance can creat love...in love u onli cannot descride in words...but onli in action and feeling..

when we will toking bout tis...i realise tat mi and jf might be a impression onli..might not be love....is juz onli a impression...when the time reach...each of us haf to leave...to find a better wan..maybe it might be hurting when breaking up...sometime reali will think of him..but oso no use le..whatever i do now..no use..onli letting him think i asking for pity...but no way..i haf to learn my bike fast..and meeting him one day...telling him i can do it without him...i haf to stand up fast enough and not living in the past..but facing the future....

i love tis msg frm my friend....

2006-03-19T18:20:00.000+08:00

This Message is meaningful

message to all guys..
Message: Guys. realize that the girl holding onto u ... is
PERFECT in their own special way.

The way she laughs ...
The way she sleeps ...
The way she loves you ...
The way she tries to please you ...

Always remember that.

She can always walk away and up, getting
someone else who can love her
more.

For all you know,
there is someone out there wooing her already,
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..

There might also be someone out there ...
who is willing to love her more than you are loving
her now,
fufill her every need and love her as much as she
loves you.

Understand that.

Girls have a huge guilty concience.
... imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today ...
and then you cheat on her by hugging and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her ...
and u do the same ...
but you see love in her eyes ...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?

She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy,
or that you have a car.

She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything
you do.

Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least you
can do is to give her unconditional love as she has
given to you.

Girls..if u are reading this...perhaps this can apply
towards ur bf or tat significant one...

(Ps: No Matter How No Matther What...I will still standing the same spot waiting for you to return to bring mi to walk togther in our life...I waiting...)

2006-03-01T15:20:00.000+08:00

It been the sixth day liao...making mi going crazy liao...lots of time i wanted to msg him..telling him i live the life without him..i noe no matter how i msg him...he oso wont reply mi back...
there is two msg that i didnt send out to him....
first is:
I dunno wat the main reason tat make u say u wan to break wif mi..i dun believe tat u reali had no feeling wif mi..but oso wont force u say oso....since it a past for both of us...together wif you for all tis month i do feel happy wif you...hope u feel the same......
second is:
i may look fooish to msg you...i oso noe u wont reply tis msg...but i reali wanted to msg u after our break up...but i didnt haf the courage....everyday i keep asking myself wat haf i dine wrong that makes u to say break wif mi..on the day tat u msg mi.."i think we should stop our relationship here liao.."my heart had start to break...keep thinking u might msg the wrong thing until i call u..i maybe look childish sumtime...but juz wanna make u happy....but in the end i was wrong...sumtime i reali compare mi n jianee togther...tot i am the xin fu gal in tis world becos of u...all tis month we being togther...all wat i noe to do is ...everyday calling u chat wif u...weekend gg out wif u...nite time wanna to hug u to sleep...is wat i oways wanna to do when together wif you...
i miss ur voice i miss hugging u when going sleep...i missing you alot..when n where we going to meet again???i still looking forward the day we meet on the day....reali...

My station wanna mi to leave.....

2006-02-27T14:09:00.000+08:00

MY Station wanted mi to leave...

It been the fourth day le...i had get back everything frm him le..but juz onli cant get back frm him again..my train still dun wish to leave his station..but he keep insist mi to leave..he had change le...Change to someone i dunno anymore...i dunno what had i done...he juz say that he dun haf anymore feeling in me le..i dunno what to do when he told mi this..my mind my day my mood had stop juz like my train the whole engine stop at some where that i dunno oso...
he delete away my friendster...my msn..juz dun wish to see mi and my profile..i had done so many things for him...why he juz dun wanna mi??am i that bad??i dunno..i cant find the answer...what should i do??

He left mi le.....

2006-02-25T00:33:00.000+08:00

I knew it...there will be a day he will leave mi....but i nv nv think it would be so fast..my heart in million piece...again and again...it would be sad mi..but not him..i guess..he so black hearted...when i wish to give everything of mine to him..he choose to leave...that my hearts breaks..reali breaks..today i return home early due to i cant consentrate on work reali..it took diffcult for mi to take it liao..i dunno why..reali heart pain...the pain that i cant explain..in my mind i juz wanna him to be back to mi..haiz..dunno will be a chance again???

What had i done wrong again???

2006-02-23T15:05:00.000+08:00

Today is a second day...He had change liao...last time he will oways tok to mi whenever i wake up...Today he juz say tat he is busy ltr call mi back...but oways took him veri long time to call mi sum time not a single call frm him..almost of the time is mi who calling him lo...i got alot of things to tel him..but he oways telling mi tat he busy...yestday nite..he say tat he went out wif friends..and ask mi not to call him..he reach home liao will call mi..but in the end nv call mi...telling mi that he forget liao..sianz siaz..i hate tis kind of changes he give it to mi..den wanna chat wif him..he say he on the phone wif friends...when going to sleep...he onli msg mi "dear i veri tired liao...i going to slp liao..gd nite.. den he juz went to slp liao..i was so so so angry le...cos i nv get a chance to tok to him le....heart break...
sumtime i reali wanna say break up..cos sweet memories had cum to the end liao..as for mi oways wanted to keep the sweet memories..but in the end the result turn out bad...No wonder everybody say tat honeymoon is onli last for three months..it truth.. a couple will onli last for honeymoon time..and everybody change..it a pain for everybody...i still tot tat we can last for veri long time..i wanna settle dwn wif him..but it seems tat in his hearts, he onli choose his friends but not mi..onli weekends he will accompany mi..tats all...weekdays most of the time he is his friends..and weekend he accompany mi but still going out wif his friends..it seem tat friends r more important den mi...my time wif him is onli weekend which onli TWO DAYS le.....................why juz give his time to mi and accompany mi....
everytime he goes malaysia and pump oil i will reali scare cos wif mi he will speed veri fast...without mi??should i say will he will more faster den everyone??tat y i oways wanna him to reach spore to msg mi...he did everytime when he go in..but there is a day he forget to on his phone..and i get to heard they reach spore frm my friend jia nee..i reali hate tis..i keep calling and calling he phone juz off...i inside a transport i oso cant get a sleep..i scare..until 2.45AM he send mi a msg..."dear sorry that just now i nv msg u..cos i forget to on my hp...now then remember...i go slp liao...tml u wake up msg me lo....."it could be sweet to mi..as he noe hw to say..he noe i worry...but i think my care wasnt care enough to him lo...he treat like nth had happen before..my care to him is nth...

What am i looking for???

2006-02-22T15:02:00.000+08:00

It been 2month plus together..But it like our honeymoon is going cum to end liao...It like he will be going to be like wat wei jie treat jia nee like tat...I dunno la...But we still will msg each other where do we go..going out wif who..reach home liao..still will msg each other tat we reach home liao...it like we oways do tis and make it to a use liao..but will it be gone forever if one of us change..i dunno...
for so long nv update my post it like kinds of lazy liao..but juz wanna to track dwn wat we do everytime..juz like i last time oways write my dairy book..something tat i left it behind...i reali scare he will be oso the one whu i left it behind of the history...as our temper oso mostly are the same de..i scare one day if we reali fight and thinking that we r not suit at all..that all our realtionship will end for nth liao...i dun reali wanna tis...and i scare of tis oso...dunno will read my dairy everyday...i onli wanna to be wif him till the ends of time onli..i dun wanna to say 4 eva is juz tat i dun believe of tis...looking for ppl telling mi am i trap in a love again..i reali dunno..im confuse again..i reali scare...
He treating me good...but i dunno tat whether is it real or is fake relationship i having now...who can tell mi..
i haf think lots of time even i had try to ask ppl...no one knows oso...tat terrible feeling oso....should i let go now or giving him one more chance..reali difficult choice i haf to make...every step one of dem might be a trap oso..

Last day of Chinese new year....

2006-02-12T17:27:00.000+08:00

Today will be the last day of chinese new year liao...And is going to reach valentine day liao...As for mi got no celebration on the day...Its seems tat mi and him is juz like lao fu lao qi like tat...To old to celebrate liao..Haha...But even wan to celebrate oso cannot, need to work le..so sianz le..got force to work le..so hate it to being force by someone...Anyway my friend say is correct lo..If wan to celebrate...Everyday is valentine day...Any day oso can celebrate...

SoOO Sianz at home le...he went to malaysia wif wei jie and left mi at hm alone..so boring le..nth to do..at hm nobody oso..all went out...daddy go for fishing and mummy and ah bui(qiqi)my sister..go bukit panjang plaza liao..left mi alone facing all the stupid walls...so boring...tot can go wif him..Haiz in the end...i got to face my home walls...luckily he send mi home to face the stupid walls..if is at his home..i reali dunno wat to do siaz...dunno today will it be busy day mahz...so sianz...if i noe..i rather go work liao lo...haiz....nth to write much oso..dunno wat to write oso...

Happy Birthday To Myself....

2006-02-08T07:10:00.000+08:00

Haha Today is my 19th year ols of birthday...And i oso get to noe tat today oso my chinese bdae fall on the same day today...tat means i oso 20 tis year in chinese together wif my enghlish de...haha...den today jia nee and irene today buy for mi two perfume frm body shop..And after work we went for a drink after tat we went to the kbox at orchard...oh...i forgot tat my jie frm work judy and MB staff bring out a small cake for to celebrate my birthday...so sweet of dem..noe i love to eat tiramisu siaz..haha...so nice le...yummy...haha...den we go drink den judy still treat mi drink coke and ask mi to drink finish at one shot...she noe i hate to drink got gas de drink de...haiz bo bian got so bo..but lucky la...they nv bring mi the thing tat i scare the most...which BALLOON....ah la ma....lucky man..today my lucky day haha...

after tat returning back to hm...mummy still cook for noodles and give mi hangbao..still dunno how much yet..haha...haven go see hehe..anyway...feeling veri sad...still qurreal wif my mum so much..nv done for her anything...juz onli noe how to make worry and angry bout mi...so bad of mi...SORRY MUMMY....u noe wat..when she wan to put the egg in hor...my egg got two yolk...haha..one egg onli le...so shiok le..tat means i got three egg yolk but onli got two egg use...haha..so good man..today is my lucky day...hope frm today onwards...i will go by tis luck all the way ba...kkk..gg to eat my noodles liao...no more rubbish frm mi liao...hehe...

Nth to do....

2006-02-07T14:18:00.000+08:00

So Boring siaz..today one stupid call frm my bf jia fu....call mi to wake up...mostly is mi wake him up during his work...today is his turn..sianz...cannot sleep a little bit more...chatwif him on the phone for awhile..He told mi tat he went for inpection..after he saw some one i hate...keep thinking who...maybe is him...i oso dunno...aiya..actually oso not my promblem....ask him faster go and die better la...i hate him so much for wat tell mi le...let him faster go die la....In tis world dun need tis kind of ppl de...faster die la...idoit...better dun show up ur stupid face infront of mi...if not i will give you two big big slap de...

Haha....veri cb mi le..haha..is his promlem liao..now i onli noe tat i wan be good gf to him...love him so much...on the saturday i now den noe tat i still care bout my bf..love him too much tat i cant afford to lose him..now i noe wat is the pain of jia nee got...at least i now is veri the xin fu...cos he is more care bout my feeling and willing to bring mi to anywhere he goes..no matter how late or whether is it raining he will still send mi back hm immediately...so nice of bf...how can i afford to lose him....I reali scare tat ppl will think tat i love becos of him bike...not his heart....but juz wanna state clear tat i love him more den his bike...and is his heart but not his bike...everybody plz dun say this anymore...

What i do for today....

2006-02-05T15:56:00.000+08:00

Haha got nth to do now...staying at dear dear's hse now....he now watching S.H.E DVD i brought for him...afer tat we went out to ah shop the bike shop to meet ck and sj there...the both guy buy two hemelt at 110...wao so cheap le...then dear dear dunno what he should buy full face hemelt or the rear shock....den everybody support him to buy the full face hemelt....haha....den funny le...As for mi...juz wanna tell him tat....watever is he wanna buy i will suppport him but juz wanna him to remember is his safety cum first de....anyway i oso buying full hemelt oso...haha...so faster hoping tat i can get money faster haha....faster earn alot alot of money....
after tat we went go hm liao...didnt meet jia nee they all...cum back frm malaysia liao den go watch movie...oso nv inform...but nvm la...not the first time oso...use to it liao tis words my dear dear say de..haha....but i oso wanna to watch fearless le...so nice le...the movie..oh my god..but nvm la...wait for the dvd cum out first den i go buy....watch wif my dear at hm...haha...so sweet...
after tat we went hm liao...den watch SHE again...but is mi watching the dvd..and is different...i watching the zhen ming tian nu...after tat shun jie ask any tiu to go mahz....i help dear to reply no le...den not so long shun jie reply tat he got tui liao...at first is at pistop...but dear dun feel like gg so he say he not gg veri tired...ask dem to go...after tat second tui again...at west coast..den dear dunno whether wanna to bring mi go anot...scare veri late cum back..den he ask mi wanna go mahz..den i say dunno le...u wanna u bring lo..in the end he reali got bring mi go along haha...so happy...he is too good to mi liao....ALL GALS BETTER LISTEN...JIA FU IS MINE....PLS DUN SNATCH HIM FRM MI...I LOVE HIM TOO MUCH LIAO....TKS..but we went hm reali reali veri late liao...i reach hm around 3.05am le...plus is still raining oso...so pooring of my dear..becos of mi..got to protect mi frm the rain and still must send mi hm...he is reali too good liao....even everyday we most of the time on the phone wif lots argue but we dun mean it at all..reali veri funny of us...

U will never change.....I Believe...

2006-01-30T04:11:00.000+08:00

I actually dun wish to view ur profile de..But dunno why I cant stop myself of doing tis....I can say I'm trying my best to forget you in my heart and put my bf inside my heart for the life time...But I lie...it unfair to my bf oso....i Know...But i juz cant doing this....

But after viewing ur profile....My mind told me tat i need and i haf to forget u immediatly....Cos my mind told mi you will nv change even is we get back...You make suffer u...make mi sad....u make cry for you...You make mi cant do everything...So wat u make change...not to drink not to go cubbing...But juz onli i will say thanks to you...U pull mi frm suffering frm bad health onli...But tat nothing to you onli...I oways juz a xiao mei mei to u...And there is a good gal joyce whu suffer more than mi...to mi is juz nth.....she had wif you for six years...she waited for you for six years...but wat did she get...i think onli the sadness and suffer u gave her onli...mi and you is juz onli few months onli..but it tooks mi six months to forget you and accpet another guy in my life...He oso ur friends...He oso noe how ur pattern is...i reali veri feel disappointed in u...i oways tot tat u will change and hope u find a better wan tat u can treat her good de...but i think that nth use lo...is juz pointless to you...

i reali hope tat u will not find any more gals tat u can hurt anymore...Gals r fraglie...Is not strong tat u think de...they oways can be strong outside but i dun think they can be strong inside too....but they no use of toking to you oso....NO USE!!!!!!!Juz hope there is a day there is a gals whu u love alot...and cheated you hardly...N i reali is one of my friend tat play prank on you.......I HATE YOU SO MUCH.............................................................

Happy Chinese New Year...

2006-01-25T08:08:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...Kind of lazy to update my blog le....nail getting long..haha..no la...do extendtion la....eileen do for mi de la...but must veri be careful le...cos i veri rough de le...hmmm...mi and him had going thru for almost two month liao...not so long oso...but for time being he had not change as well for mi oso...but i scare that one of us will change...dunno whu is changing good and whu is changing bad..Anyway dun think too much first lo..All I noe not to flirt around and be loyal to him will do....but i oso hope he will not keep everything in his heart...as for mi i tell him watever is my secert is...haha...wat i noe is the first time oso...

We on the christmas day we went to desaru...terrence help us take picture at there haha...let mi show u... haha nice mahz...hehe...so sweet mahz...

our second time picture oso...Chinese New year cuming liao...i go do my nail den dye my hair liao....but got no money to buy my clothes...sob sob...dun wanna go out liao la....haha...thik back oso no use la...got no hangbao take de le....all my stupid relative veri idiot...u not present den good...i can save my hangbao...wao kaoz...veri idiot de la...i must go...take all their hangbao...den i can save my money return my bill and save my money to learn bike...and buy new full face hemelt...haha....

Happy New Year...

2006-01-01T17:12:00.000+08:00

Long time nv update my blog liao..so miss year 2005...the memory i had left at there...should i still remember the past wat had he done or i should forget him and continue love my boyfriend and not to think so much..And dun being flirt around wif guys...quit my drink and quit all the chiong...And be a xian qi de girlfriend...haha..haha...today is 1st jan...tml is our 1month liao...haha..
so happy...dunno whether can be togther for so long mahz...haha...dun think too much liao..